I learned early on to lean away from myself in order to belong. To soften my edges and tuck away my grief. To hold it in, keep the peace, tend to the invisible wounds in the room, and carry unnamed burdens.
To belong is to survive.
It happened in the small, quiet betrayals — saying “yes” when my body said “no,” suppressing my tears so others wouldn’t have to feel theirs, turning my wildness into wildly useful so I could keep a seat at the table.
It’s OK, I don’t need anything.
The visceral realizations of this self-abandonment has come in iterative waves. Soft and hard cellular moments. Sometimes sabotaging emergent movement, sometimes actually disrupting the pattern of self-betrayal.
When I stayed with my body during the instability of moving five times in two months, a deep disruption of self-betrayal occurred. A rerooting happened. The rootlets, radicles, root hairs, and other little mycelial tendrils of the deepest entanglements and loyalties softened.
The old root rot fully fermented, loosened and fizzled up and out. For the root of me. The “I am.” To take over.
To be a rebelle is to give up your position and claim your place in the larger living field, with tender humility and fierce truth.
To know: I got enough. I am enough. I’m doing it differently. I have agency in what I carry.
Family Constellations and other deep listening containers let us step into a third place, into a field of human and more-than-human resources ready to hold the truth of the exclusion, unsaid, grief, rage, and other marginalizations and culturally disavowed states.
In Rerooted Rebelles, we won’t yank anything out by force. We will warm and coax and court the soil. We will compost the inherited scripts and renew our agreements with life.
In our 90-day circuit, we’ll build momentum for those renewed images to take deeper hold, in the body. With witnesses.
REROOTED REBELLES
A 90-Day Constellation Journey for Self-Regeneration
Begins Tuesday, July 8th, 2025 | Live on Zoom
✮ 10 sessions over 3 months
✮ Family & Systemic Constellations
✮ Writing & Art Prompts
✮ Somatic Holding Practices
Themes We’ll Move Through
July: Acknowledgement & Accompaniment
We make room for all that’s been unfelt — grief, rupture, frozen instincts. We say: “Me too.”
August: Balance, Order, Weight & Size
We take up our right size. We practice leaving others with what is theirs. We say: “I take what is mine and leave you with yours.”
September: Belonging & Individuation
We root into the freedom to belong to ourselves — and to life. We say: “I belong to myself and still to the world.”
Who It’s For
Field-based guides, therapists, artists, parents, activists, healers — those ready to release self-betrayal and be accountable to self-regeneration. For those carrying grief that hasn’t been properly witnessed.
Structure & Flow
10 Live Zoom Sessions on Tuesdays, 7–8:30pm EST
Dates: July 8, 15, 22 | August 5, 12, 19 | September 2, 9, 16 | Final Session: September 30
Google Classroom for sharing art and questions
Sliding Scale: $150–$350/month (no questions asked)
Total range: $450–$950. Median: $700Add-on private sessions at student rate
Part Requiem.
Part Amphitheater.
Part Campfire.
90 days of rerooting and dancing toward place, dignity, and enoughness.
It’s not about staying endlessly strong.
It’s about rooting in strength so that we can keep rising.
To join, email mattie@thelostwildness.com or book a vibe check call here.