I learned early on to lean away from myself in order to belong. To soften my edges and tuck away my grief. To be the one who held it in, keep the peace, tend to others’ invisible wounds, and carry burdens no one was naming.
To belong is to survive.
It happened in the small, quiet betrayals — saying “yes” when my body screamed “no,” suppressing my needs and tears so others wouldn’t have to feel theirs, turning my wildness into wildly useful so I could keep a seat at the table.
The visceral realization of this self-abandonment has come in iterative waves. Cellular moments both soft and small. Sometimes sabotaging emergent movement, sometimes actually disrupting the pattern of self-betrayal.
When I was able too stay with my body during the instability of moving five times in three months, a serious disruption of self-betrayal occurred. The root hairs, filaments, rootlets, radicles, mycelial threads and all other tendrils of the deepest entanglements and loyalties softened.
For the vulnerability required for essential animistic resources to show up. For the old root rot to ferment, loosen and fizzle up and out. For the root of me. The “I am.” To take over.
To be a rebelle is to give up your position and claim your place in the larger living field, with tender humility and fierce truth.
To know: I got enough. I am enough. I’m doing it differently. I have agency in what I carry.
Family Constellations and other deep listening containers let us step into a third place, a field rich enough to hold the truth of the grief, rage, and other states of wholesome aliveness.
In Rerooted Rebelles, we won’t yank anything out by force. Instead, we will warm and coax and court the soil. We will compost the inherited scripts and renew our agreements with life.
In our 90-day circuit, we’ll build momentum for those renewed images to take deeper hold, in the body.
REROOTED REBELLES
A 90-Day Constellation Journey for Self-Regeneration
Begins Tuesday, July 8th, 2025 | Live on Zoom
✮ 10 sessions over 3 months ✮
✮ Family & Systemic Constellations ✮
✮ Writing & Art Prompts ✮
✮ Somatic Holding Practices ✮
Themes We’ll Move Through
July: Acknowledgement & Accompaniment
We make room for all that’s been unfelt — grief, rupture, frozen instincts. We say: “Me too.”
August: Balance, Order, Weight & Size
We take up our right size. We practice leaving others with what is theirs. We say: “I take what is mine and leave you with yours.”
September: Belonging & Individuation
We root into the freedom to belong to ourselves — and to life. We say: “I belong to myself and still to the world.”
Who It’s For
Field-based guides, therapists, artists, parents, activists, healers — anyone ready to stop betraying themselves and start inhabiting their lives fully. For those carrying grief that hasn’t been properly witnessed.
Structure & Flow
10 Live Zoom Sessions on Tuesdays, 7–8:30pm EST
Dates: July 8, 15, 22 | August 5, 12, 19 | September 2, 9, 16 | Final Session: September 30
Google Classroom for sharing art and questions
Sliding scale tuition: $450–$950 total (no questions asked, payment plan available)
Optional private sessions
Part Requiem.
Part Amphitheater.
Part Campfire.
90 days of rerooting and dancing toward place, dignity, and enoughness.
It’s not about staying endlessly strong.
It’s about rooting in strength so that we can keep rising.
To join, email mattie@thelostwildness.com or book a vibe check call here.